almost there

well hi everyone! once again its been a hot minute since I've posted a blog post. as busy as I get, I always find myself coming back to this blog so I can let it all out and just write. if you know me well, you know writing is one of my biggest escapes, and something that I find so much joy in. right now im really needing an escape. I guess I should probably update all 11 of you on what I've been up to these last couple of months.

1. I now have a boyfriend

2. I have an internship at the Dr Pepper Museum

3. I have met so many wonderful new people

4. I am now a senior in college

wowza there! a lot to unpack! let me first start with Austin. man you guys. im seriously the happiest ive ever been in my life. I met the kindest and funniest boy that I just adore. he makes laugh like nobody else and being in his presence is so fulfilling. he's got the biggest heart and I'm just so lucky to have him. we have almost been dating 3 months but my goodness it feels like so much longer. its hard to express the feeling I have when I think about how much I love this kid. im also in the process of navigating a little bit of a distance while we are doing different things this summer. I'm home in waco continuing my internship, while he is back in his hometown. I go a couple of weeks at a time without seeing him and honestly its really hard. I really don't want to sugar coat it, it flat out sucks. he came to waco to visit this week and it was exactly what I needed. but today he left again, and I think ive been sobbing all day. on and off at least. I keep hearing distance makes the heart grow fonder and I know its true. him leaving just doesn't make it any easier. but thats okay, I have so much to look forward to. the best is yet to come:-)

alright on to our next topic - my internship! super lucky and just so blessed to be the communications and marketing intern with DMP. ive gotten to do so much work that relates to my future career and I love the community and environment. I actually took Austin to the museum this past week and he had a blast. my boy in my place, so sweet<3

andddd our next topic of choice! new people! I have made so many new friends u guys. through rush cycle, my internship, and through Austin, i've met people that I never wanna live without. ive grown so close to my boyfriend's friends, and it just makes life so special. it warms my heart.

and lastly- the future. GOSH SO SCARY. the fact im a senior in college is honestly a little terrifying. I feel old. before March, I was kinda just vibing and having a good time. and now I see a future connecting right in front of my eyes and I couldn't be more excited. as much as I love baylor and don't want to leave, I am so comforted by the fact that I have the best support system around me to grow with.

and now for the take-aways. what I want to take away from this post is the idea of growth. I think there is this overwhelming idea where you gave to grow individually and not be dependent on others. sure yes, part of that is definitely true, but I also think that growth does not have to be linear. it doesn't have to be this one constant stream of happy where nothing goes wrong in your life and it all adds up. heck, I have grown so so much over the past few months but that doesn't mean things didn't go wrong. I have been waiting so long for a boy to love me like Austin does and I'm 21 years old. I grew before I met Austin, and now I get to grow with him. how crazy special is that? thinking about the growth I have on my own as well as in my relationship excites me and makes me feel like there is something so great to look forward to. because I know there is!!! I might not be the best person to take advice from, but I will say that giving yourself the space to grow is key. I took a lot of time to work on myself and it made all the difference.

thats all for tonight folks. I hope you enjoyed hearing about my updates and learning about all my crazy. until next time xxxx

Alyssa<3